lalalas~~
its fridays.
tml saturday going bakk dance sch.
cause gort lantern festival celeb i tink..
dens sunday osho must go bakk for childrens day celeb
haiish
omg norhhs
sho many celebs.
hahas.


today was sho fun niahs.
i was omost late for sch. xD
i dont bother !
(im owish omost late this few days)
hahas.
during MT lesson.
LLS nort in klass marhs.
den me take e chance go run errant for Mdm Choy
=]] sho long nvr liao. (i slack ! )
hahas.
called rachelG along norhs
cause..
go alone sho sian marhs
hahas.
went to dose klasses to ask.
though i noe none of e chinese dance ppl are vegetarian norhhs
but i still hack narhs
wann waste tym marhhs
=)) kekes
wasted most tym at erhhs.
mun yee; nicole ; shannon n dawn dere.
we dere tok tok tok.
mun yee; nicole n shannon all dunn wann go bakk klass.
cause ms au yong inside.
den say canort tok.
=[[ hahas. sho ke lian.
but waste sho much tym liao.
sho i ask dem go in.
im sho evil.! but.. no choice marhs.
haiish.. =((
-recess tym.-
oh yuh.
b4 recess was mother tongue lesson.
dens.
i wanted to change out of PE attire.
(although we dont have to)
but i wann! get it !
lolls
okkays.
sho..
after changing..
put my bag into klass..
look out e window.
saw dexter dere.
took e chinese WS i wann give him..
den walk out of classroom
goes to e railings..
saw him looking at my direction.
waves.. points toward e stairway direction.
moves dere..
pass e ting..
den i donn noe say what larhs..
den i saw jia xin..
she ask if i w8in for doreen.
den i thought she say doreen inside toilet,
i go in ..
doreen nort dere..
i ask jia xin..
she say doreen go down lerhs.
diaos.
nvm norhhs
den i came outta toilet..
dexter was still dere.
den i look at him..
den i wann go down stairs liao
den dexter donn noe yy how he walk faster dan me
LOLs.
at staircase dere he infront me siaks
he say..
Mdm Rashidah dere..
den he point to my socks
"ankel socks"
den i like look at my socks..
den i see hes socks..
he gort wear socks mehhs
den i say..
dunn hav mdm rashidah larhs
den i walk down..
bend down..
aiiyo !
saw mdm rashidah.
den he say
see..
still say dunn have
haiiyahs.
den i say..
sorwie narhhs..
LOLs
den i dun care my socks norhs
cause he..
dont noe ish got wear socks de anort.
i dun tink sho..
lolls
sho i osho dunn wann pull up lerhs.
yao shou ku..
yi qi shou ku..
hahas.
den we toked from e fourth floor to e first floor..
den to e canteen
heehees(:
half-way doreen call me..
den she join us
but she din tok.
reach canteen lerhs..
he say bye bye to me..
LOLs.
okays.
i said bye too..
den we like dont noe each other lidat again lerhs.
hahas.
so guai lorhs
hhaas.


-during recess-
gavin keep chan2. zhu4.
me n doreen.
lolls
den wk kkor n jw kkor
dere keep pui4. the ice at us.. shireen osho kena.
lolls
recess was fun.
still got alot tings happen narhs.
dunn wann say,
ltr doreen pai seh
hahas(:



-concert-
omg.
the celeb was fun..
lolls
me n joey keep dere tok tok tok.
laugh laugh laugh
hahas.
den bryan lim sitting bhind me..
den he join in tok osho norhs.
gideon leyi dey all osho.
den we dere..
keep cheering sho loud niahs.
i scared i no voice liao.
but..
i dun care.
heehees
den gort e PM tcher do e dance..
me n joey turn to bryan lim say..
"bolly bolly ! "
hahas
den he say..
yy?
rili whats
den me n joey dere laugh laugh laugh
lolls
oh yuh..
gort e guess guess guess e "game " larhs
den gort LLS's pouch larhs
den nobody dere on stage can guess.
den we all..
me;joey;bryanlim;gideon;leyi;dulcia;yian;bessy;mandy
keep shout..
"AHSLEY ! ASHLEY ! "
den handsign the letter "L"
den maybe ashley tink we calling him LOSER
lolls
another one ish mrs seto's baggie !
den we do e same ting norhhs
call out ashley's name
but tis tym round we did e handsign "S"
den maybe ashley tinks we calling him SUCKER
lolls
FUN FUN FUN !!
lolls



PSLE COMIN LERHS
4 DAYS MRE.
i tink sho..
hahas.
everyone..
jia you worrs!!
11 MORE DAYS WE CAN GO SIAO LERH!
YAYNESS !
hahas
olayys!
hahas.
im sho eager norhhs
hahas
wann faster test finish
hahas.
haiish
i must DO MY BEST !
hahas.



oh yuh..
dexter.. give eu ur science on tues.
hope its nort too late.. hahas.
love euu..
hope we can tok mre..
lolls


anw..
gtg orh orh lerhs.
hahas
very late liaos.
12+
hahas
friday whats.. can slp late
lolls
gosh
tml gort e "lang man zhi wu"
die
yue qin lao shi say i must noe how to dance
im dead meat !
uh oh..
nvm narhhs
let her scold norhs.
i kena scolded by her until used to it lerhs.
first few tyms.. cry..
but now..
i dunn cry infront of her.
wo2. ren3. !
hahas
okkays
omg !
sunday celeb!!
childrens' day
my script !
omg..
die le larhhs
relac relac
me go read n memorise now..
erhhs
gtg le ohhs.
bye bye..
nitey all..
love eu..


sweet-innocence*//goodbye
i dunn wann say bye bye to u leihs.. haiish
after psle den we say barhs.. love eu always.. hahas
mwarks !

Thursday, September 28, 2006 &

arlows .
kekes.
its like sho lng nvr blog lerhs.
kekes.
oh yuh..
lets rewind ..
erhhs
okayys..
ytd.
we had PE larhs..
den ms lim nvr take us for PE
den mr charlseton (MC) came
i donn noe how to spell his name larhs
den he play all dose boi boi games.
hes shoo boring at first norhs.
hahas.
but horhs..
den gort e slapping game
hahas.
den he ask for e strongest girl.
den e whole klass shouted
"rachel lee !!"
den i was like..
im nort norhhs. !!
den haiiya
den MC call me out narhs.
he he explain sth
(abt e game we're gonna ply)
den he said dont noe what slappin game
LOLs
den he ask me lift up my right hand
den he hold my wrist..
ask me try to slap him.
den i was like..
heyy..
ur a tcher..
me slap u..
can mehhs
sho i dunn dare slap..
but he dere keep say.. slap slap slap!
den i jiu try to slap.
i managed to slap him donn noe once or twice.
i cant rmb larhs.
hahas.
den he say..
now i will try to slap her.
den i was like.
FAT HOPE MANS.
u try larhs..
den he use sho much strength niahs.
but..
he still dinn manage to slap me.
told u FAT HOPE.
lolls.
den me n joey dere..
hold dere only..
nvr do anyt derhs
only wen see him lookin at our direction..
den we act act.
but we still nvr use strength
den we aiming dere..
cause MC say ltr ish boys vs girls.
den joey say she wann ain zhi meng
den i say..
rachel goo sure take zhi meng derhs.
sho joey say.. she go wiff yusri
den i say i wann try if i can slap yong ren.
hahas
den after MC say okayys.
in three sec..
i wann all obb eu to find a boy/ girl partner
(as in girls must find a guy partner.. boy must find a girl partner larhs)
den joey ran to yusri.
den i looked at yong ren..
den me walked to him.
LOLs.
he was like standing dere.. looking at me.
wth norhs
nvm lorhs
my aim was to slap him marhs
heehee=]
i noe im evil
lolls
game starts.
MC says only e girls can hit.
the boys only can defend.
wow!
he rawwks larhs
i mean MC
hahas
give e girls chance.
wakakas
he i managed to hit yong ren twice.
though he use damn lot strength to try block.
hahas
YAYNESS!
lolls.
den we still gort play alort of games larhs,
PE was fun dat day..
hahas
i mean ytd
lolls.
tml gort childrens day celeb.
tink its gonna be boring..
haiish..


nvm narhs..
hahas
i donn bother.
do i??
maybe nort!
hahas



dexter called me today,.
lolls.
anw..
i gtg do hw le larhs.
bye bye.. wo aii ni men.
mwarks~!

Sunday, September 24, 2006 &

haiish.
i saw hes post.
was he refering to me? if yesh..
i tink..
i mean..
i had nvr said dat i nvr trust eu u noe..
i dinn believe what alvin said..
sho..
i wann make tings clear.
sho me ask u..
dats it..
haiish.
i said it for sho many tyms lerh.
u just dun believe..
what me do.. den u can..
haiish..
saw u in klass today..
duroing ur math lesson.
u sho hardworking sia..
made me have more motivation to study..
i must jia you lerhs.

psle coming liao.
great.
leave this skool..
no offence..
but dunn habb to see dose ppl dat i canort stand.
NO OFFENCE.
i tink u urself noe who u are larhs.
i dun habb to name.
haiish.

oh yesh !!
psle finish den can
learn guitar n latin dance liao.
den my mum was helpin me find my partner..
she told me e ppl she named..
i was like..
WTF?!
den i say..
i dont wann larhs..
can change ppl marh..
den i was thinkin abt my dance skool ppl larhs.
den nxt min..
i in dance skool lerh.
sunday gort lesson marhs..
den i saw colin(junda) larhs
den my mum saw him..
hes osho in nanhua marhs..
den my mum asked him abt e nan hua stuff..
lolls.
my mum told him im goin nan hua..
den he was like..
good good.
lolls.
farnie sia..
den i was praying hard my mum wun ask him abt e latin dance ting
but..
wen i got out obb my dance klass..
my mum told me..
erms..
darling, i found u a partner.
den i was like..
huh?! so fast?!
den i asked..
who?? (omg) i was dumb after hearing her reply.
den..
i msged colin.
he DIN say he DONN WANN!
he said..
im sorry.
i cant..
cause of my full schedule fr mon to fri
den i said..
phews..
nvm.
okays.
den he asked..
ish e dance after ur psle after my exams?
den i was like..
yea..i tink sho barhs..
den he say..
den maybe i can.. but no guarantee.. ok?
den i was like.. okays.. we'll see den.
seriously..
i donn mind dancing widd him.
but hes like..
tall..
like..
tall leihs
i told my mum..
she sya..
nvm derh
den he msg me say..
for ur info..
i rili suck at dancing.
i bet u wonn wanna dance wid a loser..
den i wen to rmb e pass few performance which he was in..
dancing wid e others..
he dinn suck at it whats.
LOL.
den dont noe y..
i replied liddis.
no arhs.. nobody ish perfect arhs..
anw.. y did u call urself a loser?!
i'd nvr thought i was sho bad barhs.haha.
u wouldnt noe if u dont try.
omg..
y did i reply lidat sials..
den..
he replied.
sorry.. my self esteem v low derh.

hahax but thx for e encouragement

anw..

haiish

my scedule just wouldnt allow me..

dat means, he wann but cant..

den he say..

eyh..

but after exam..

we'll see barhs..

lolls.

den we started tokin abt nan hua thingy.

lolls.

fer guitar..

i wann learn bcoz ob stress.. sho can destress abit.

lolls.

my cousin..

ish to pei me derhs.

hahas.

omg..
my bro bringing me go see e lee hom
yan chang hui..
lolls.
nice..
hahas.
cant w8 . LOL.
nort rili larhs.
hahas.

walao..

mdmrashidah where gort lidat derhs.

she bad niahs.

zhen dui jt until lidat.

sho kaypo.

its hes ear..

osho nort hers.

he osho nort her son.

care sho much.

hell larhs..

idiot..

make jt cry.

areyhole..

bLEAHS.

sho bad !!!

haiish.

after psle jiu can go out liao..

haiish.

okays.

anw..

i dont dread to go sch n being at hme lerhs.

just dont.

lolls.

go sch,.

can study.. can see him..

come hme..

can study..

can ply com.

hahas.

okay larhs.

i wann go study liaos.

canort waste any min ob my life.

i love me.

i love him too.

buhbye.

and please..

i hope u will re consider again..

tink wad happened..

i love eu no matter wad u say larhs kays.

hahas.

okays.

bye

Friday, September 22, 2006 &

haiish..
life nowadays have been a dread.
i dread going tuu sch.
i dread being at hme.
me rili wann to go sumwhere quiet..
wif fwens..
who wann tuu study..
ppl who wann learn from each other.
understand n care for one another.
i seriously dont noe wadd kind of ppl
im surrounded wif..
i mean..
thanks for dose who are dere wen im down.
im nort refering to u.
im refering to dose who..
just..
u noe..
in chinese..
xiu shou pang guan..
haiish.
nvm.
i dont noe what im toking.



dexter..
thanks ferr notes.
its really useful.
though sum pages missing.
hahas.
nvm.
i will read all derhs.
thanks.



anw..
haiish
actually..
if see e fwens ..
i tink e skool ish nort bad derhs.
but if see all e jerks n backstabbers..
this skool..
nort good at all.
haii.
everyth gort two faces derh.
nth ish perfect.



psle comin.
me start to buck up lerhs.
studied quite alort tis few wks niahs.
haiish .
must jia you.
hahas.
i wann try cope..
watching tv..
ply com ..
listen music n tok on fone..
all at e same tym..
while reading my book.
hahas.
dat feeling v fun nehhs
hahas.
i feel good lidat while reading my book.
nort studying larhs.
read story book.
hahas.
relaxation purpose.
lolls.
i read my notes n other on e bed..
haiish.
e feeling is great larhs.
=]]]
hahas.
gort one tym..
i tink quite lng ago..
i read my notes for vry lng on e bed marhs..
den like 2 hrs ..
i nvr go out e room niah
den..
wen..
a while lerhs..
i cum out..
den i go in again.
wah..
the bed sho messy niahs.
hahas



haiish.
notice my attitude change liaos.
alort.
my bro osho say.
he say..
i bcum better liao.
haiish.
but sum others say i weird weird derhs.
nort good.
haiish..
lols.
nvm larhs.
i will change again.
soon.
just w8 and see kays.



hahas.
dose ppl who rili vry the hate me..
seriously..
u dont habb to act in front obb me.
wann act..
go mediacorp..
just in case..
u lose ur opportunities.
u may be e best actor/actress nehs??
hahas
no offence but..
e feeling izzent nice.
i noe derhs.
but i just keep quiet.
u all wann act..
pei u all..
but me nvr act like u all lidats.
me just..
BE MYSELF


yays.
todays saturday..
tml sunday lerhs.
can see "full tym ah lian"..
"part tym ah lian"
"full tym ah beng"
LOL.
den can dance finally.
haas.
gtg tuition lerhs.
byebye
iLOVEu.
people..
if u feel dat me vry bad..
im sorwie..
i dont like the new me too.
i will change derhs.
deng wo.
i love eu !!

Wednesday, September 20, 2006 &

walked hme today..
alone..
cried.
no body knew..
..............
one car. two motors. four buses.
omost bang me.
..............


i was thinkin what happened just now..
i slaped myself..
bit my own finger..
to see if i was dreaming.
seriously..
i was not.


i just wanted t make tings clear only marhs..
i dont like alvin!
i HATE HIM.
TO THE CORE.
he sux larhs.


why must he (alvin)
make life diff for us?
love canort be forced.
i nvr give up on dex.
because of him
its totally not worth the large sacrifice.
now he happy liao larhs.
me n dex break lerhs
okays.
listen.
im gonna make ur life difficult.
alvin u beware.
i hate u.. totaly and forever.


dexter,
im rili sorwie.
i din meant to write dose tings derhs.
i just wanted to make tings clear.
anw..
wud i have such a bad choice.. to stead wif him?
its a definite NO !
seriously..
i cant lose u.
can u change dat decision u have made?
im totally shattered.
i hate myself.
wo xian zai..
cai fa xian..
xiao zhe ku..
jui tong.
u saw me smile after reading dat letter.
u saw me laugh wen sch omost end.
was dat how i felt deep down my heart? happy?
of cause NOT !
the love built up for u in me..
was way too strong.
wo bu neng zhe yang jiu fang xia.
ye bu hui fang xia derh.
i promised..
i'll nvr leave u.
and i nvr will.
tings dat i've gone through..
the ups and downs we travelled.
is this e way..
both of us get e reward?
*tears rolling down my cheecks*
is all dat worth.
just remember okays,
no matter what u do..
i'll still love eu.
if u ask me..
to tell anyone..
e fav part of my life..
i wud say..
e tyms i had..
wif u.
i love eu ! now and forever !



normal posting..
haiish
i tink she changed liao.
i mean not me.
but sumone in jps.
she like..
totally change liao larhs.
arrogance..
so on and so for.
and osho..
bian huai lerhs.
why must she lidats?
i itnk joey noes who im refering to.
haiish.
dissapointed.
anw..
nvm
i dont mind.
she can do all she wants.
i wash my hands off her.
GOODBYE.
wait.
dats too cruel.
i'll help her.
but if she doesnt budge..
i cant do anyth.
i dont blame her.
its her choice.
maybe is e ppl around her force de barhs.



haiish.
i crying here. and nobody cares.
i need ur love.. care..
will u come back?


oh yas.
was in com lab today..
den maths class ppl haben cum yets.
so we just started e maths tingy first.
den zm n ch n yl
keep "disturbing"
me siaks.
hahas
nvm.
i dont wanna do e maths anw.
do before le.
i tink.
so..
nvm lorhs
i just do.
must be hardworking lerhs.
canort slack.
canot waste any min of ur tym.
haiish.
me wanna score gd gd.
i wan to achieve my target.
i wan u back too.
love u.
the ending..
depends on u.
ur decision.
no matter whats.
i'll love u.. forever.
swears.
wo zhi ai ni yi ge ren !
no others.
exp. my darling shireen , joey n rebecca..
cant forgt..
laura.. yusri..n sum others..
who are by my side wen i need u..
thanks alort.
but..
i still love him* most.
*shattered*
i'll try nort to cry.
but i just cant control my tears from rolling down my cheeks.

&

ellos..
hahas.
me so happy..
whee
but sho stressed.
haiish..
this mornin got PE.
den ms roshidah took 6F..
den wah kao.
6F e ppl sho guai siaks.
all tuck in e shirt.
my klass see dey all..
fatser tuck in nia.
but horhs.
we just fake fake de larhs..
shh.
fold only.
nvr see ms roshidah jiu pull out liaos.
hahas(:
den i keep lookin out for him.
but din see him leihs.
den thought maybe he late barhs.
but..
ms roshidah..
din tink sho much.
so me carried on wif my own PE.
recess tym.
came down to canteen.
saw singling eating dere.
jiu ask her.
she dio shock.
ivan sitting infront her osho shock nia.
haha.
say i like ghost lidat.
no sound derhs
omg.
dats an insult.
hahas.
chheys.
jkjk D:



im supposed to do my hw.
i haben started yet.
its already 10.
hahas.
but dont noe y..
i ended here.
kekes(:
nvm.
smiles(:



1 mre week to PSLE lerhs.
sho excited.
faster cum..
hahas.
but..
graduation day..
me sure cry derhs.
WO SHE BU DE NI MEN!
ESP. YOU !
hahas.


haiish..
omg. yes.
i finished watchin e whole japanese show lerhs
me everyday watch one series.
everyday cry..
haiish
sho touching niahs!!!!!
i love dat guy larhs.
opps*
i mean..
he helped e girl sho mch..
though he had hes GF
den his GF actually vry jealous derhs.
but in e end..
she..
got into university..
den was determined to study..
so she din mind sho much liao.
den e guy keep helpin e other girl siak.
sho sweet!
omg omg omg !!!!!
if want me tell u e whole story..
i can
hahas.
but..
watch it urself beter.
kekes(:
lidat den u can feel e suspence..
blah blah n blah.



anw..
i must learn to live every moments of my life.. to e fullest.
take it as if dey were your last.
wad if u had died tml?
*choys*
but..
tink of it.
is everyth u are doing now..
worth??
if u wanna watch TV. eg larhs.
is e TV programme so impt to u..
to let u waste ur tym to watch it?
oh and..
okays.
lets say..
u look into e pessimist kind of tinkin arhs
do you noe dat u are movin towards ur death date each day?
for eg.
you have twenty days in ur life larhs okays.
one day pass..
19 mre days to go..
another day pass..
18 mre days to go..
seriously..
how wud u feel??
i am an optimistic person.
i love to see e sunrise.
thought e sunset is nice as well.
but..
e movin towards ur death date thingy made me tink..
i know what i want.
i know what i need.
i osho want to change my attitude n personality.


exam period lerh.
i have to convert all e so-called "stress" n "potentials"
into passion in studyin.
no tym is late.
like for donation..
no amt is small rites?
mm..
every min of our life is impt larhs.
we must treasure it.
before u slp everyday..
tink..
what have u done today.
have u did everyth at ur best shot?
have u met your target?
are u happy wif it?
so on and so for.
everyth u do..
ask urself..
why? why? why?!?
why must be lidat and not like tis.
but why must it be liddis but not lidat




anw..
why did i tok abt tis..
haiish
e show lorhs.
motivate me.
learn sho much.
haiish
anw..
i dont noe how to phrase it properly larhs okays.
but..
everyone..
JIA YOU !!!


hehes(:
got to do my hw lerhs.
must strive.
have me done my best today?
have me put in effort lerhs?
reached my target?
hahas.
i bet.
my dream n hopes on myself..
is waiting for me..
haha.


bye bye.
love eu*

Monday, September 18, 2006 &

omg larhs.
its like less dan one day den sho many ppl noe lerhs.
hahas.
iloveyou!
anw..
me dont noe y..
dat nite dream of tis song larhs
den me started liking it.
jiu go find if got tis song.
okay..
rili have.
den i was like omg!
tis is great!
so..
me just love it kays.

heres e lyrics

by mayday:

怎么去拥有一道彩虹

怎么去拥抱一夏天的风

天上的星星笑地上的人

总是不能懂不能知道足够

如果我爱上你的笑容

要怎么收藏要怎么拥有

如果你快乐不是为我

会不会放手其实才是拥有

当一阵风吹来风筝飞上天空

为了你而祈祷而祝福而感动

终于你身影消失在人海尽头

才发现笑着哭最痛

那天你和我那个山丘

那样的唱着那一年的歌

那样的回忆那么足够

足够我天天都品尝着寂寞

才发现笑着哭最痛wo…

如果你快乐再不是为我

知足的快乐叫我忍受心痛

gtg lerhs.

aiiniiyiibeiizii~

mwarks

&

wth.
today foto takin
MT din even tell us siaks.
hell lorhs.
anw.. me cut my hair.
cause din noe gort foto taking.
den..
early in e mornin..
wake up..
my hair like canot tie one pony tail lidats.
so me very e fed up.
jiu tie two.
noe its kinda weird.
but..
no choice.
me will try tie one tml derhs.
xin li yi shen tell shireen say nort nice.
very ugly
sho must tie one.

foto takin was fun

hahas.

BUT!

just before e person wanna take e pic..

MT ask me go down HOD rm take her shoes.

hell lorhs.

SHOES lei.

but.

nvm larhs.

go down see..

pls lorhs.

where got SHOES?

its slippers.

den me stunn diao.

lolls.

dere got one pink one black de.

den me rmb she wearing black.

jiu take black de.

but e black de sho ugly lo.

but who cares.

lolls.

me scared nort enuff tym for foto takin jiu run.

lolls.

cause dere got two classes w8in lioa marhs.

hahas.

she sho ma fan siaks.

hahas

but.
nvm.
still in tym.
lolls.
guess by den.
my hair messy le barhs
me dun care liao.
lolls.
LLS took wif us lorhs.
sho farn larhs.
e fun foto..
me n joey pull LLS up to stand on e table wif us.
hahas,
dens we do post.
LLS say
pai yi ge zhao pian yao zhe me duo post. lang fei shi jian
heyys.
where got lang fei shi jian??
its sho fun!
hahas

i hurt daomy hand today.

bcoz of dat dumb screen n white board in 6E larhs.

hahas.

canort say lidat larhs.

but..

my hand swollen jiu dui le lorhs.

me sho careless.

keep banging into tings.

ytd nite osho..

bang into my grandma rm e door.

den swollen osho.

i mean nort e door swollen.

my hand.

hahas.

den me tell shireen le

den she ask me..

e whiteboard pain anot?

got dented?

lolls

i noe shes jokin de lahs.

she loves me de horhs.

hahas

chheys.

seriously.

i wont blame her for anyth.

hahas.

anw..

omg.

me like tis colour too.

oh yuh.

i mean.

anw..

me saw him today.

he looks best as per normal.

hahas.

crap.

iloveyou

mwarks!

i'll preomise e eternal love.

nvr letting u go again.

i wud not let anybody have e chance to grab hold of u derhs.

you're mine !

hahas.

wo ai ni.

gtg lerhs.

tatas.

Wednesday, September 13, 2006 &

lolls.
dont noe y tis few days like sho restless lidat.
haiish.
me sho depressed siaks
me bottle everyth up.
haiish
i dont noe what two of dem are thinkin now.

haiish.

me had nvr thought tings wud be lidat.

maybe its fate bahs.

fate ish cruel.

haiish.

sum tings are unexplainable.

but if we tok it out..

tings can be solved.

y is it a point dat

everytym u call..

im either in supp klass

or havin tuition.

or bsy derh?

i dont like this feeling

me wanna tok to u.

me miss ur voice.

me.

me..

me...

me just

love the way u are.

seriously..

u dont have to change.

just be who u are.

okays.
im vry afraid
im still thinkin if we patch le marhs.
u din tell me anyth abt e patching thingy
so??
wads it?
yes /no
im afraid dat..
if me dont get e ans..
day by day..
time to time..
e feeling for u will fade
i noe its weird.
but e wierder ting is..
wen me hear ur voice..
see u..
or wen u tok to me..
the feeling for eu is back.
i love u as mch as before.
haiish.

me hide many tings.

n me dun say or show or express it out.

esp. how i feel..

i just cant lorhs.

haiish.

i hate my life.

cause i dont have eu wif me.

but dat izzen ur fault

me hereby tell u dat.

me wud nvr blame eu for anyth.

stop u from anyth.

me willing to sacrifice everyth.

as lng as..

u're happy.

but dont xiang wai wai larhs.

lolls.

this few days..

all e tchers siao lerhs

give sho much hw.

make me sho stressed lorhs.

so fwarked up larhs

grrs.

haiish

kekes(:

sth made me smile.

u.

hahas.

me tink of u.

hahas.

okays.

me go do hw lerhs.

if nort me need to stay up late n wake up early lerhs.

baii baii.

rmb.

me love eu forever. mwarks.

Tuesday, September 12, 2006 &

seriously.
i have nvr thought he wud say
"i love eu"
to me.
mayb i tink too mch lerh
he was tokin abt bro n sis bahs
but wen me tell shir dar.. she said its not.
me very fan le
me sho stressed kays.
me cant take it anymre
over loaded wif hw
n alort mre.


me end here first.
gtg tuition lerhs.
byebye

Thursday, September 07, 2006 &

waa~
i hate holidays.
cant see "xin li yi shen"
cant see shireen darling.
cant see bao beiix fwens ..
kors n jies.
haiish.
so sad.
dexter like very angry wif me lidat.
he like dont wanna tok to me.
*cries*
me want tok to him.
me hao xiang ta worrs.
kekes(:
come back bahhs.
haiish..
me will w8 derhs



justin wants maggie back
maggie nerhs?
haiish.
so fan lorhs.
haiis.
everyth troubling me.


marmie n daddie okay lerhs.
dun quarrel le larhs. kay marhhs?
hahas(:
wo hao dan xin wors.
marmie say we can go for family outing.
yays!
i was w8in for tis.



hahas.
ytd shawn n pearlina
discussing wif me..
abt e chaet tingy.
shawn's parents say..
if he get all band 1 for psle..
he can go lerhs.
yay!
pearlina nerhs?
dont noe yets.
wen we going lot 1??
lolls
blur le larhs
shawn say after psle.
pearlina say b4.
den wens?
lolls. nvm.


me sho sianx.
me watching japanese show.
nice siaks.
hahas.
e guys dere sho shuai.
girls sho chio.
lolls.
me siao lerh.
lolls.



was wondering if our sch like in dat show..
jiu good lerhs.
but..
we dont be dat huai dan lorhs.
hahas.
lalalas~
tink its gonna be sho farn !
*ahh~*
lolls.
dont woryy.
im going bonkers liaos.
kekes(:



maybe erhhs.
maybe.
yesh.
mm.
i will rmb derhs.
bleah~
what am i thinkin.
okay okay.
*wakes up*


i noe y tis few days me sho like siao siao lidat lerhs.
cause everyday me wake up at 4+ comin 5
cause gort tuition at 5.30am
i noe u all wont believe.
but its sho true.
lolls.


oh yuh.
me bought hamster
like urmphs..
two days ago.
yea.
deir so damn ke ai kays.
actually me wanna buy e doggie derhs
but now..
haiish in tis hse..
too small lerhs.
so cant
after moving back to yunnan den can buy.
so my sis say she wanna buy hamster.
lolls.
den buy le osho scared to ply.
den what for?
only me my cousin n bro ply only.
she arhs..
haiish
dont noe how to describe.
lolls.
both hamsters are da,n very the ke ai kays.
one cor "kiki" one cor "koko"
kiki very quiet
very soft.
nort very active.
sho guai.
koko nehhs.
haiiyo.
keep running around.
vry the active.
osho ke ai.
lolls.
ge you ge de hao.
kekes(:


lolls.
e japanese show..
part 1 finish lerhs.
tml den can watch part 2 n 3
cause my tcher din bring it.
lolls.
haiish.
tml leih.
must w8 sho lng
cant w8 to see what happens nxt lorhs.
so jin zhang
hahas.


sho scary lorhs.
tis few days
kepp on got ppl msg me.
unknown de somemre.
lolls.
hahas.
but all i finally noe who lerhs.
except two mre.
hahs.
like detective lidat seh.
lolls.
im sho irritating.
oh tyty.
hahas.


rili got to go lerhs.
if nort i'll be sho late for tuition again.
lolls
(:
love friday klass.
cause..
erhhs.
y arhs?
ohh..
cause can see rui qi.
den mayb azlin dere.
den me love to piss rui qi off.
lolls.
shes so kawaii.
lolls.
den after sci tuiton folowin is eng.
dere can see doreen who tells me everyth.
lolls.
den we tok tok tok.
den kana scolding.
say until so happy sehs.
get scolding lehs.
bleahs.
who cares?
hahas.


okays.
gtg lerhs.
buhbye.



*mwarks*
woaini*
woaita*
ke shi ta ai de que bu shi wo*
shi ling wai yi ge ta*

seriously i dont mind larhs.
as lng as hes happy.
(:



loneliness known by my name.
(guess its confirm) (wahahas)



fallen` tears* _]]

eew. e design sho nan kan.
who cares?
hahas.
buhbye.

Sunday, September 03, 2006 &

kao lorhs.
today holiday but still got bu ke.
8 to 1.
7.51 den me started eating my breakfast.
me din wanna eat actually.
cause i noe i'll be late lerhs.
but was forced by mum n bro to eat.
so..
me just drink up sun of e soup. den jiu say..
erms. i finish eating lers. can we go now?
pls lorhs.
my bro haben finish eatin yets.
den we had to w8 for him.
so me went to tie my hair properly.
me just anyhw tie up at first.
hahas.


wen i reached sch..
came out of e car..
saw mandy.
i was happy.
so i wasnt e last person.
at e sch gate..
yar lee ran towards us.
i was grinning den.
phews.
so if LLS sclds us..
its e three of us.
not one.
mandy osho lidat say.
yar lee also agreed by sayin..
yar lorh yar lorhs.
hahas.
we like not scared lidat lorhs.
we still dere laughin n tokin..
but wen we heard LLS's voice...
we quickened our steps.
hahas.
we stepped in e sch..
saw LLS.
luckly..
she just said
wahhs. so early horhs.
in chinese larhs.
hahas.
i passed her e tcher's day prezzie.
hahas.
she looks kinda happy.
dats good.
saw HLS too.
n guess she was looking at me.
me smiled at her.
den me passed her her prezzie too.
i cun rmb if she said thank you.
but nvm larhs.
its fine wif me.
i realise me dun rili hate her lerhs.
only wen she looks angry n walking towards my direction.
den yes im scared.
admit lerhs.
((:


was talking to justin just now.
he said dexter say..
me n him patch lerhs.
i was like..
rili mehs?
we din tok lehs.
he din even tell me !
wahhs..
i rili dont noe whats happening lerhs
im getting blurer n blurer each day.
someone help !!

hahas.
sians.
bro plyin psp.
cousins plyin com.
me got nth to do.
hahas.
just now..
me sat bside bro..
keep disturbing him.
lolls.
it was fun !
hes pissed by me lerhs.
YES !
oh yay !
hahas.


me suddenly love this colour.
dont noe y.
wahahas.
ytd finally spoke to yang jie korkor.
hahas.
or maybe..
i spoke to him b4
but dont noe dats him bahhs.
bwahahas.
told eu im blur.
heyys kkel jie, bel mei, silea..
rmb??
*blur queen? snow queen?*
wahahas.


me no longer snow queen lerhs.
me kinda love to live the sun.
so u can extract dat.
u can leave e blur queen on.
lolls.


bye.
me wanna continue piss my bro off.
hes eating pizza.
waa~
where's my share?
blahhs..
me wan go eat hes share.
hahas
hes asking for more..
RUN!!
to e kitchen..
grabs hes share n chomp it down.
hahas.
no larhs.
im nort so bad.
me no wanna eat.
just wan go dere piss him.
kayys.
end here today.
got to msg zx daddy liaos.
hahas.
yin hao,
jia you for ue exam !
all e bestie!
hahas.





shireen darling..
ur wish is acomplished.
me upload liaos.
wahahas.
mwarks.
ILY.
din see u today.
hao xiang ni wors.


uh oh..
tml gorts doc's appointment.
me no wanna have injections n blood tests lerhs.
me HATE it !
doc said dat my lymps are low.
but me still fit !
me told e doc saying
all three of my napfa tests which i took..
all get gold.
he was shocked lorhs.
hahas.
hes face looks farnie wen hes shocked.
lolls.


me rili wanna piss my bro lerhs.
hes irritating me.
my turn now.
lolls.
ltr going out to ply bbal n soccer.
hahas.
yay !
love all.
and him*
hope whatever he told justin was true..
((:
hahas.



loneliness known by my name
(maybe nort anymore. nort sure yets.)
hahas.
*mwarks*

Friday, September 01, 2006 &

oh rites. couldnt forget this email.
i read it in june lidat.
den now..
passed round around by fwens liaos.




10th Grade

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me.
She was my so-called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair.
I wished she were mine, but she didn't notice me like that.
And I knew it.
After class she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before, and I handed them to her.
She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I wanted to tell her.
I wanted her to know that I don't want to be just friends.
I love her, but I'm just too shy.
And I don't know why.

11th Grade

The phone rang.
It was her on the other end.
She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart.
She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did.
As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine.
After 2 hours, a Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep.
She looked at me, said "thanks," and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her.
I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends.
I love her, but I'm just too shy.
And I don't know why.

12th Grade

The day before prom she walked to my locker.
"My date is sick," she said.
He's not going to go.
Well,
I didn't have a date and in 7th grade
we made a promise that if neither of us had dates
we would go together just as "best friends," so we did.
Prom night after everything was over I was standing at her front door step.
I stared at her.
She smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes.
I want her to be mine,
but she doesn't think of me like that,
and I know it.
Then she said, "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her.
I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends.
I love her, but I'm just too shy.
And I don't know why...

Graduation Day
A day passed.
A week passed.
A month passed.
Before I could blink, it was graduation day.
I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma.
I wanted her to be mine,
but she didn't notice me like that,
and I knew it.
Before everyone went home,
she came to me in her smock and hat, and she cried as I hugged her.
Then, she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "You're my best friend, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her.
I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends.
I love her, but I'm just too shy.
And I don't know why…

A Few Years Later Now,
I sit in the pews of the church.
She is getting married, now.
I watched her say, "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man.
I wanted her to be mine
but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it.
But before she drove away,
she came to me and said, "You came!" She said, "thanks!" and kissed me on the cheek
. I want to tell her.
I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends.
I love her, but I'm just too shy.
And I don't know why...

Funeral yrs passed,
and I looked down at the coffin of the girl who used to be my best friend."
At the service they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years.
This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he were mine.
But he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it.
I want to tell him.
I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends.
I love him, but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
I wish he would tell me he loved me…
i wish I did too…
i thought to myself,
and I cried.




wahhs.
so toucing horhs.
i omost cried too.
lolls. (:

&

hahas.
i gort a new nick name.
given by yin hao.
'ANG MO BLUEBERRY"
cause..
i gave him a nickname too.
cant say..
if nort..
sumbody will do sth which i dont want.
ltr hart pain .
hahas.




tchers day todae.
just eng n just sci nvr open.
lucky i din go.
my mum was abt to fetch me dere lorhs.
den i said..
marmie.. can dun go? me wanna swim
den she said okays.
den i was yay !
shuang .
den..
after swimmin..
bervyn kor said today no class.
den i was like..
so 8 o clock e just eng oso dont need go le larhs.
lolls.
i was soo happy lorhs.
lolls

hahas.
me rmb wen swimming dat tym..
my cousin n i go join my bro ply bball.
den slowly..
its 7 of us against my bro.
den gort another 2 other guys in e bball court too.
dey were shaking deir heads dere.
guess dey were pissed bahs.
YES !
wahhaas.
no larhs. im not dat bad derhs.
zx daddy say must guai..
lolls


went ice scating today too.
leg got blister..
waas !
hahas.
daddy say he dont noe how to ice scate.
so i bcame hes tcher..
say if got tym den we go.
warhs !
nuer bcum daddy's tcher..
daddy very good.
bu chi xia wen
hahas.
chheys. jkjk.
din tok to marmie today..
dont noe she okay marhs.
hao xiang ta.
lolls.
darling today dont noe got go out marhs
haiish.
xiang si ta lerhs.



darren's angry wif me.
yin hao say me n darren like having cold war lidat.
dun wanna tok to each other.
hes so farnie lorhs.
hahas.
zx daddy says yh is cute.
den yh say daddy is handsome..
den daddy say..
eyhs..
he thought yh say hes e most handsome guy in e world.
den i said..
dats called zi lian.
canort blame him.
lolls.



i din noe i was dat farnie.



no larhs. jkjk only.
den daddy say..
i also as bad as him.
den i was like..
no larhs.
like father like daughter marhs.
hahas.



suppose to call yh now.
but im too lazy.
sorwie wors..
wahahas.
yy today i keep using blue? dont noe. feeling blue bahhs.
lolls.
but im pink in health.
hahas.


anyways.. gtg slp lerhs.
nitey all.
mwarks.
its a long dat today.
going to downtown tml.
haiish.
nvm larhs.
bye .
goodnites.







loneliness known by my name.